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It’s coming. It is no longer “out there.” 40 is only SIX days away! I’m normally not a birthday person. I don’t like to draw attention to my day. And often times I’m a little bit sad and reflective the week of my birthday.
This year is different though.
This year I’m excited for my birthday. I feel like I’m about to cross an imaginary line in the sand to something better. I feel like my whole life so far I’ve been trying, working as hard as I can, beating myself up, wanting to be good enough, striving to reach higher, and accomplishing the next big thing. I’ve always been reaching for something…to graduate high school, then college, then to get a job, then to get married, then to have children.
Happily, I’ve done all that. My 30′s are mostly a blur. I was shoulder deep in having babies, nursing, changing diapers, and learning to be a mom. There’s still plenty I’m trying to figure out. I’m still making stuff up as I go, hoping I’m doing it right. But I feel like I’ve finally reached a place where I can take a big deep breath and relax a little. I feel like I’ve worked really hard to get here, but now that I’m here it’s time to enjoy the ride.
I know myself better now than ever before. I’m striving for new things, still reaching higher, and going outside of my comfort zone. But the one thing that’s changed is knowing that I don’t have to be perfect and that doing the best I can is good enough. We’re almost always our own worst critic. That has definitely been true for me. But now I’m so ready to move beyond that.
So that’s it. I’m feeling pretty darn good about this birthday, and I’ve got a lot of ideas of things I’d like to accomplish in this milestone year (that’s another post).
How do you feel about birthdays? Do you love to quietly celebrate or let everyone know it’s your special day? I’d love to hear from you!